May 22, 1863
Last night, I dreamt of fire.
Fire, and death. Men lying in the streets, dying as buildings burn around them.
As it has been, so shall it be.
I am so tired of this war. I long for my home.
When I woke, I asked the question I have asked these long years… How much longer?
Yesterday, before I rested, I saw that I am finally drawing near another town. A Pony Express rider told me it is Lawrence, a free town, one that I should be able to find shelter in, where people would protect me, and not put me back in chains.
He meant the chains of men. I thanked him for his information.
Perhaps it will do me good to be among others again. I have spent much of this war hiding, trying to avoid being caught in the many, many battles, but helping who I can.
I pray there are good people there. And I pray they are not the faces I saw in my dreams.